Fractal Form: Creation, Chaos Dynamics and Consciousness

Could evolution be a fractal of the multiverse? What if it's not all about human consciousness but about perception? Creation playing with form. We form theory of mind about the animals that share our world, but can we fathom this on an infinite scale? Senses, the changing out of peripherals, realities phasing in and out, experience not limited by form. 

Sure the universe could accomplish this on multiple planetary bodies and this is where the theory would end, but within a multiverse couldn't this theoretically happen on earth alone? Evolution can then explore infinite possibilities a mutated gene at a time.  Chaos dynamics at work. A tree of life that branches through out, linking universe to universe. Quantum, An eternity seeking. Chaos dynamics gives it order. Simulating all experience, absolutely everything explored. Or would there be a collapse in the mechanics? An equilibrium within the system that dictates it's creative potential? The only equilibrium in fractal geometry is the tilt of scale, a chaos system being influenced. Suttle changed finding beauty. Dinosaurs to birds can we imagine a more dynamic change? What other "conscious" lifeforms have or do exist? Are we the only beings in all of existence to ponder the meaning of life? A universe so vast it's only limitation  is our window of light. Is our sliver with all our specific mechanics of consciousness all there is?

In the bigger picture could our seeking too be a fractal? Ask yourself who is doing the seeking?  All states of awareness  explored?  Creation could be working from instinct, unknowingly making its nest. The animal we are?
If a creature can accurately form a theory of mind about us, I believe it may question it's own reality. We are creatures bound to our biology but creation itself knows no boundaries. What of the universes with different laws of physics? Life, after life, afterlife. It's about experience.

The Breach

         I drempt I was in the middle of the ocean, standing on an empty barge.  I heard a man yell then he disappeared into the belly of the ship. I remain there staring out to sea as the earth shook around me. As I looked up I saw the sun was falling, but there was no time. Only momentary fear, a flash of light, followed by complete darkness. There was a sound that washed everything away. A sound so beautiful that nothing dare remain. It was the sound of the sun sinking into the ocean. Though my eyes were closed, I closed them again, and this is where the dream ended. In darkness. When I awoke, I awoke happy, still holding onto that sound. I never understood why that was, and I would never attempted to decipher it. The feeling is too precious to lose  to reason. I can still hear that sound but only when I close my eyes. It extinguished all life, but there I had remained. To witness the last breath of mother earth, deep, dark and calm.

My Notes on the Noble Eightfold Path to Enlightenment

NOBLE EIGHTFOLD PATH TO ENLIGHTENMENT

Do not become attached to the teachings. Knowledge of these steps will not bring you freedom from suffering. Only walking the path can give you the experience needed to attain inner peace.

-----------------RIGHT VIEW--------------

Delusion is what keeps you tied to suffering.  If you hang on to delusion it becomes part of your identity. To overcome this pain you must pass through it. Do not bury or avoid it. This only causes more delusion and you will find even more reasons to live with pain and create more of it to reinforce your delusionary reality. 

Try to see the reasons behind your actions and the actions of people around you. Be aware of social constructs, the systems in place that keep you bound to group hallucination. It is easy to live this way if others reinforce this reality. Be aware of codependent relationships that anchor you to an identity rooted in suffering. Be aware of the masks you wear, the defense mechanisms we've developed over the years. Also be conscious of these things when witnessing interactions between others. Then watch your reactions to them and deconstruct your concepts of people. Be the watcher of the world without and the one within.  We have many reactive processes that have become hard wired. An autonomous firing of neurons.

If you find yourself in a negative state of mind you can trace it back to its origins. Slowly rewinding the sequence, thought by thought until you uncover the reason behind your actions. Seeing the truth behind negative thought processes will give you the ability to stop them. whether it be pain you are avoiding, not seeing the true nature of others, or judging situations from a skewed perspective, we must free ourselves from these delusionary states.

The longer you walk the path the deeper and deeper your understanding will be developed.

      

-----------------RIGHT INTENTION---------------
      HOLD INSIDE OF YOU
THE INTENTION TO NOT FEED NEGATIVITY
THE INTENTION OF KINDNESS
THE  INTENTION OF NON INJURY

     AVOID
THE INTENTION FOR SENSUALITY
THE INTENTION FOR AVOIDANCE
    *To avoid doing the right thing 
THE INTENTION FOR CRUELTY  

-------------------RIGHT SPEECH---------------------
   
ABSTAIN FROM FALSE SPEECH
   *Try to Speak truthfully always

ABSTAINING FROM SLANDER
    *Do not speak words that divide. Your words should always bring people together
  
ABSTAIN FROM HARSH WORDS
    *Do not hurt others with your words

ABSTAIN FROM IDOL CHATTER
    *Always Speak meaningful words. Words with a purpose. Do not participate in idol chatter or gossip

---------------------RIGHT ACTION-------------------------

ABSTAIN FROM THE DESTRUCTION OF LIFE
     *This goes for all life including animals

ABSTAIN FROM TAKING WHAT IS NOT GIVEN
      *Stealing

ABSTAIN FROM SEXUAL MISCONDUCT
     *Exploiting others for sexual gains, promiscuous sex, or rape

-------------------RIGHT LIVELIHOOD-------------------
DO NOT DEAL IN MEATS
DO NOT DEAL IN POISONS
DO NOT DEAL IN INTOXICANTS
DO NOT DEAL IN PROSTITUTION/SLAVERY
DO NOT DO SOMETHING THAT WILL ERODE YOUR INNER WORLD

------------------------RIGHT EFFORT-------------------------
Break down your thoughts into two categories

WHOLESOME

1 Loving Kindness, Brotherly Love
2 Compassion
3 Empathetic Joy
4 Equanimity

Make an effort to strengthen wholesome states of mind by meditating on them. Do not over overexert yourself because you will exhaust the mind. You have to find the perfect balance between effort and calm to get results.

UNWHOLESOME

Make an effort to stop future unwholesome states before they arise

Intention and effort go hand and hand. Intention guides the effort.

The practice is to eliminate negative thoughts completely. To quiet the mind and be in full control over the unwholesome states of mind.

-----------------RIGHT MINDFULNESS-------------
Be aware of your body and everything around you. Take your third eye into your body. Be aware of your emotions and what is happening around you. With RIGHT VIEW and mindfulness you can not only see but you can feel the true nature of your inner and outer world.

---------------RIGHT CONCENTRATION - - - - -
Here is where the wholesome state of mind and mindfulness are focused to a point within meditation. Here  RIGHT VIEW becomes a vision instead of just ideas. The deeper your understanding of the true nature of things the less constrained your meditations will become. In this state your mind is quiet but in free flow. Your consciousness feels ever expansive and your awareness is reaching out on all directions. The trees seem to sway for you. Sounds are more present and there is a sense of deep peace. This is the doorway to the state of nirvana.

The Call

I received the call 39 years on the day of my birth. I was in ritual. I was looking forward to playing music with one of my dearest friends. I crushed it under paper as my friend removed the guitar from its case. I had been single for 8 months. Out of an 18 year relationship, which was loveless for the last 7 of its years. I was finally over the sickening depression. I felt good but this was not so easily done. I spent many nights in agony. Fighting the urge to text or call. I remember begging her to at the least leave me her friendship, but I never received a reply. I used this for fuel. Running 5 days a week, I obsessed over my health. I even began the tortuous practice of power yoga. I felt like an athlete. At this time in my life I took care of my body during the week, only to poison it at the weeks end.
      I finish it up, one by one, plush and straight. I nodded. I watched him zip through. I was about to push in when the phone rang. The number contained overseas prefixes.  I smiled. It could only be my mother calling from Cairo, remembering to wish me happy birthday. I answer the phone singing.. Happy birthday to me, happy birth.. I was interrupted by a strange voice speaking Arabic. Repeating my name followed by words i could not understand. He was repetitive as was I. Naima i said? Where is Naima? Naima. Again i heard him repeating the same strange phrases. I felt sick.  I ran out the door to the convineint store quarter mile up the road. I begged the clerk to speak for me, please I said I don't understand Arabic. I saw my hands trembling as i handed him the phone. He spoke and after every sentence he looked my way. Finally he said your mother is in a coma. She is very sick. I felt my stomach turn in and  then collapse . Her liver and heart is failing he said. I thought of the dream I had two nights prior. She was in agony wanting to spend one last moment with her kids. I felt paralyzed and screaming. I realized it wasn't a dream. Somehow she had reached out to me. Hanging up the phone he said. They will call tomorrow to give you an update. I thanked him and walked home in a daze. I don't remember when my friend left. The next thing i recall was standing in a super market line when the number rang again. I knew she had died. I answered knowing i would not understand, but I needed no translation. I half listened staring into space. The voice distant, my vision blurred and I hung up. Nina Simones if I should loose you came on. I stood there in silent tears. If I should lose you the stars would fall from the sky. I love you mom.